Author Archives: gmjc1966

I think I’ve just been a party to a social awakening. I was the one that woke up! Just under an hour ago, I dropped my 15yo son off for his shift at McDonalds. I needed a couple of things for dinner so popped into Aldi to get my suppplies. I returned to my car and was drivingContinue reading “I can’t figure out why”

It’s New Year’s Eve – 31 December 2023. Including today this is day number 21145 for me on this planet. If you prefer it this way, it’s 57 years, 10 months and 23 days. As with probably every single person I know, I am looking forward to a new start and to see what 2024 brings. TheseContinue reading “Rinse and repeat, or ………?”

I’ve always been a shy and nervous person, especially when I am meeting new people. I’ve never had faith in myself as being interesting enough to hold meaningul conversations or to have people long to be around me. This lifelong affliction – for want of a better word – has crippled me many times andContinue reading “Backing yourself”

A few weeks ago, just before I was about to play competition golf this particular day, I was chatting with a fellow club member who had just prior to that day turned 90. Let’s call him Bill. I’m not sure what got us on to the topic, but we started out chatting about life inContinue reading “It’s all about people”

The Saturday before last, my 15yo son had a school mate of his come over to my place so they could hang out together for the day. In case you don’t know, I am a divorced father of 2 teenagers and have 50/50 custody of them with their Mum. Now my son had had hisContinue reading “How do I – or should I – feel?”

Since my teen years I have battled with wanting to be accepted, either by a particular group of people or to be seen as being good enough at something and therefore gain acceptance that way. For whatever reason I never saw myself as being particularly good at anything and have felt that how I amContinue reading “Reason or excuse?”

I have mentioned many times in my previous posts that at some point in my teens I began to feel the need to be accepted, and at the time not really being sure of what it was that I wanted to be accepted as or for. I also never had a really positive opinion ofContinue reading “Does it REALLY matter?”

Every story has 2 sides, but not everything that happens in this world necessarily has an explanation. When it comes to my story and of where I am today, I can tell you my side of the story but for whatever reason was never given a specific reason as to why I was no longerContinue reading “I’m not sure why….”

I am sure that those of you who have read any of my previous posts will know that I have always struggled with how I view myself and have lacked a real sense of positivity about myself for the majority of my life, starting around my mid teens. My son has recently turned 15 andContinue reading “Notes to self”

I wrote a few days ago about how it is nothing shameful to be human, to show human frailty and make mistakes. I was – and still am – committed to unburdening myself from any feelings of shame over the mistakes I have made and situations I have placed myself in the past because ofContinue reading “Shame on me”