I tell you what, I am so good at making my life complicated! I seem to have the habit of gravitating to things and into situations that leave me vulnerable – usually financially. I have now stopped to ask myself “What am I chasing and for what reason?” Is is intimacy? Companionship? Sex? It isContinue reading “It’s all on me”
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The cat’s in the cradle
I have struggled with self-esteem and self-worth issues since my early teens (and probably longer), and I recently started seeing a psychologist to try and find out the why’s and when’s and wherefore’s. At my session a couple of days ago, it was put to me that my struggles and nerves about “Am I aContinue reading “The cat’s in the cradle”
Just say CCC
Life can be a mystery at times, and so can then inner workings of our minds. I have had a lifelong struggle with feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem, and basically not placing much if any value on myself as a person especially when it comes to relationships. Why is that? In search of thatContinue reading “Just say CCC”
Put a stick in your shirt
It’s tough to stand up for yourself in these modern times, with all kinds of pressure to perform to a particular standard or for society to influence what “appropriate behaviour” should be. Since my teen years I have found it difficult to ‘fit in’ and have shortchanged myself as to how I deem myself asContinue reading “Put a stick in your shirt”
Acceptance, perception and reality
Ever since I was a kid, I have struggled with finding a place where I know I fit in. The image I have created for myself has not been flattering or positive and my self-esteem is not strong. I’m not arrogant, I never seek to be the centre of attention and I most definitely doContinue reading “Acceptance, perception and reality”
To a dear friend who’s gone
We laid you to rest a week ago, the sadness is still raw I get upset when knowing that I’ll never hold you paw You truly were the greatest friend, and unconditionally so To know your love still lingers in my heart will help me grow Life is now more empty, and I’ll miss youContinue reading “To a dear friend who’s gone”
Some goodbyes are sad…
Many of us have lost loved ones, family members and dear friends. I have lost a sister to cancer and a brother to homicide, and my parents died a year apart after 70 years together. I know sad. That sadness was added to today when we had to put our beloved Labrador Chilli to rest,Continue reading “Some goodbyes are sad…”
Time heals, helps ….. and hinders
7 years ago today, my love changed irrevocably. I had been kind of barely hanging on in my marriage, which had just passed the 14th anniversary by 5 days. We had steadily grown distant and I felt that nothing I did made any difference, so an obvious result was that my love was drained awayContinue reading “Time heals, helps ….. and hinders”
It will all be WORTH it
For as long as I can remember, I have always struggled to see myself in any real positive light, especially when it comes to personal achievements or especially in social settings. Of course as I have grown older I have become more confident in meeting new people but the former – seeing myself as anyoneContinue reading “It will all be WORTH it”
Uncomfortably comfortable
I read a good quote the other day: “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” Reading that phrase got me thinking (what doesn’t? LOL) – am I comfortable (read happy) with my life and who/how I am? I’ve always been my harshest critic and as a teen in particular I longed to beContinue reading “Uncomfortably comfortable”
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